~* DuCkS aRe CoOl *~

[Sep. 2nd, 2005|03:01 pm]

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i dont know why i feel so low. Everything with my friends is "ok". But i still feel unhappy everyday. I wish i could be happy and have fun. But there is alot going on in my head that i just keep there so no one will know. And emotionally my head hurts. I dont like the way i feel but there is nothing else i can do 2 change it.

I have 2 work 2 nite (come see me + and support bro.floyds daughter Haley! with her cheerleading team @ chick fil a)I feel horrible and cant concentrate very well, im really tired. I hope 2 be home b4 12:30 2 nite cause i got 2 b back at work @ 8am to 5pm. Then im going 2 run home and take a shower and get ready.

I have 2 options for saturday night: 1. Go out with Sarah G, Meghan, Kristine and some other people. Out to dinner for Sarah's b-day!
or...
2. Ashley asked me if i wanted 2 go do something tomorrow nite (i was thinking wow actually go do something with ashley its been months since we have hung out) but i found out that, that choice comes 10 other people and a guy from pace that ive known since we were babbies lol, and its REALLY wierd knowing him and one of my friends are kind of "talking"

Well I feel like crap and i want 2 die. I Strongly dislike with a passion my life right now. But who really cares!?! I HATE FREAKIN WORKIN EVERY FREAKIN DAY FOR SOOO LONG DANGIT

jenn

p.s: If you check my LJ alot i also have a Myspace and an Xanga.

[Aug. 31st, 2005|10:26 pm]

[	Current Mood	\|	blah	]
[	Current Music	\|	Lifesong: Casting Crowns	]

Soooo 2 day I was over at Mrs. Christy's watching her kids since she had 2 work. We went 2 Chick fil a and ate it was good!

The 1st night of Pier 4:19 was awesome!! I had alot of fun!! The lil King Bobo prank was great. Cant wait till next week when the pier is FINISHED!! It going 2 be Soooooooooooooooooooooo Cool!! Me and Nick will have alot of cleaning 2 do tuesday 2 get ready. Got 2 do the Cafe, boardwalk and put All the chairs out.

I got 2 work, tomorrow 4-9, friday 4-close and saturday 8-5 :(

It turns out that I cant go 2 mississippi cause of the gas shortage and the roads are blocked :(
It sucks. I wanted 2 get away from everything thats going on around here w/ people.

School starts tomorrow :( thats good and bad i guess

FYI:GAS= lines and $2.75 a gallon!!! Gas prices are just going 2 get higher and higher! (its already $6.00 in Georgia) There is also a bad shortage now. It wont be back 2 normal for over a month. So I think we should all keep are drivng 2 a minimal amount (school, work and church). And if You pay for your own gas ride with your parents 2 church it won't kill you. It will save you money! Do yall agree?!?!? or Disagree?!?!?

TTYL-Bye,

*Jennifer

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I GOT IT!!!

[Aug. 31st, 2005|04:36 pm]

[	Current Mood	\|	ecstatic	]
[	Current Music	\|	CASTING CROWNS: LIFESONG CD	]

I GOT IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The Casting Crowns CD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ITS AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I LOVE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*Jennifer

VENTING!!

[Aug. 30th, 2005|09:11 pm]

[	Current Mood	\|	crappy	]
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Tonight I got really upset. I was going 2 go 2 the movies. And I got ready @ 6 and was excited 2 go.. waited for a phone call. Then i didnt get one so I got online and on one of my friends away messages it said "Movies!!"
So i got really upset, they lied and freakin went without me and didnt call. So i texted them and they said "well were not there yet you can still come" I was 2 upset 2 go. There was ATLEAST 1 min between the time they decided 2 go and the time they were going 2 leave 2 call me. I would NEVER do what they did 2 ne of my friends.
But they are inseperable. they talk like 20 times a day, and go hang out with each other 24/7. always at each other house and stuff.
2 day n the car i just sat n the back seat and didnt say a word cause they were planning what the next thing they were going 2 do that day. like i was not there. I was so mad. I tried 2 have fun but i still feel like crap when im around them. (Im not going 2 use names)

I freakin HATE this, i cried for like an hour

*Jennifer

(ow and I know one person is going 2 be "frusterated" at me when she reads this so.. 2 her: Thats just whats going on in my head)

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[Aug. 30th, 2005|10:18 am]

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busy

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I was woken up by a text message this morning from bro. floyd. It was really funny how it was from him lol. Well Im going up 2 church 2 do nothing for a while then me and Nick are going 2 go see Marissa. Then I got 2 go up to work and tell them that I cant work this weekend b/c of a family emergency. We have 2 go up 2 mississippi and help my grandparents, they had 10 TREES fall on top of there house. No lie its really bad. I loved that house it was so fare out there n the country the nearest gas staion was 10 min away (that is out there lol) So I have 2 get off! Then 2 nite i'll probably go over 2 the hoovers. Unless someone wants me 2 go do something.
Well I got 2 go geet ready ttyl. Bye

CASTING CROWNS CD COMES OUT 2 DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*Jenn

[Aug. 29th, 2005|04:47 pm]

[	Current Mood	\|	ecstatic	]
[	Current Music	\|	Rain outside	]

I got 2 talk to my friend Amanda n NC last nite and I told her how Im thinking about going up there for a while this summer. And ive been thinking about going 2 college there and never coming back but on holidays cause its 10 hours away. Sounds great 2 me!! I miss all my friends up there they were soo freakin awesome! The youth group was great everyone was close with each other.

I hung out with Mrs. Ceri Welters middle school life group class all day sunday!(brooke hoover, bree bell, And christina p) there awesome kids. We had a shaving cream fight sooo fun, mud fight kind of gross and a cake eating contest. I had a great time.

Then I went over 2 Brooke's house (im always over there if im not @ church, school, or work) Ms. Christy is awesome! Looking back im so happy I had her as my Paradise host this past year. I dont know what i would do without the Hoovers! Im always myself when im around them (nice, happy, hyper, talkative) yesterday I went over there 2 help Ms. Christy get ready for the storm.

Well I got the new Barlow Girl cd that doesnt come out till sept 27th. Its really cool.

Casting Crowns: LifeSong CD comes out TOMORROW!!!! Im so excited!!! but i doubt lifeway will be open :(

*Jennifer

WAY 2 LONG!!

[Aug. 27th, 2005|12:43 am]

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I worked from 4pm to 12am. I am soooooo tired. I have 2 get up at 6:30 to go back to work from 8am to 5pm. THATS WAY 2 Long!! Well I guess I'll c ya'll @ church sunday (If I make it thru tomorrow) I feel horrible and I havent had a good nights sleep in like 2 weeks!!
*Jennifer*

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[Aug. 24th, 2005|08:43 pm]

[	Current Mood	\|	uncomfortable	]
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Ive been going thru a lot of stuff lately. But I dont tell ne one. I keep it to myself. I dont want 2 waste ne ones time.

Im not close with any of my friends ne more. (that stopped last year when school ended) I dont talk to them a lot ne more cause they dont talk to me that much. Mostly just a "Hey, Jennifer. How are you?" But I know why that is. Theyve all been close since like pre-k and I just got her n 9th grade so. I kind of saw this one coming. Its are last year and they just want 2 hang out with old friends. (I know 2 make an effort 2 hang out but when im off people already have plans)

I was invited 2 do something with them for the first time n 3 months, yesterday 2 go 2 a Pace football game but Im working 4 to 11:00.

Ive been working everyday after school and saturdays. Its getting hard 2 stay awake at school. Ive been blowing off my home work cause I cant concentrate 2 do it when I get home from work.

But My family needs the money from me working right now. So..

Ive also started the whole "not eating" thing again not on purpose but it just happend. I did eat lunch 2 day and a sandwich 4 dinner but that was cause I hadn't ate since monday.
My neck has started 2 hurt real bad. And my Chest hurts when I breath now.

Tonight at church was okay. Seeing all my middle school kids was Awesome. There is this one kid n 6th grade, Ben and he shared that he got saved thursday @ FX. During the 1st half of worhip when I went down to the alter 2 pray he came down so i prayed for him then after wards I stayed up there and just sang, then he was like "Can I talk to you" and I was like (wow me lol) "yes". So I did and I had 2 get Beaven 2 take over cause some of the stuff a girl couldnt help him with. But I told him I would pray for him.

So ya thats just 1/4 of whats going on with me.

*Jennifer*

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This is a Pole!

[Aug. 22nd, 2005|09:33 pm]

[	Current Mood	\|	Worked ALL afternoon + Night	]
[	Current Music	\|	none	]

Who Actually reads my Live journal entries???
Please comment!!!

*8 More days*Till Casting crowns CD comes out!*

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[Aug. 21st, 2005|09:13 pm]

[	Current Mood	\|	calm	]
[	Current Music	\|	Casting Crowns: Lifesong cd samples!	]

I have'nt had any comments to ne of my posts in a while. So I guess yall just read them and just 4 get about it.

Well ne ways this weekend good. Busy but good. Ive found out the past month that I can have fun without my friends. They tell me 2 make the effort and we'll go hang out well that hasnt worked 2 good. This was my first weekend off n 3 weeks. But who really cared.

Ive started just doing alot of stuff alone. cause everyone just hangs out with other people. I went 2 the Mall yesterday and Walmart. Then I went 2 church today, It was okay, wish it could of been better, I just always feel left out (but I am so). No one cares so why do I even talk about it on here. I would never talk about it n a conversation.

At school Ive just started 2 hang out with the SEB people at lunch and stuff. My old table doesnt care if im there or not. I dont talk and they dont talk 2 me. so whats the point?

At church Ive started hanging out with the Juniors cause they actually like me hangin out with them and they talk 2 me. There Cool.

Ive just been tryin 2 be calm about the whole friend issue. And not try 2 make my friends mad at me again like it was this summer.

Ive gotten just emotionally and physically drained since school has started. I got 2 school from 7-3 then I work after school from 4-9:30. (Except wednesdays, im at church 4-9) Im only off on sundays which is a great time 2 hang out with people but I dont.

Me and my dads views have gotten better about some stuff. I got my paycheck friday and My dad told me
" You pay for your Gas now so you can go where ever as long as u tell me" So that is cool. Hes also gotten better about my curfew and stuff.

So im excited! This week is going 2 be real busy for me school and work Mon, tue, thur, and fri. School and church wed. Work 8-5 sat, then im going 2 a friends party that night. Sun church then a salt meeting then another party! Heck Yes.

So much fun I cant wait. Well Ive been gone all day and I havent done ne home work so I better go do it now + laundry. Yay, not lol.

So how about yall tell me what you think??

~* Jennifer *~

Countdown= 9 Days!!

10 more days!!!!!

[Aug. 20th, 2005|06:55 pm]

[	Current Mood	\|	only 10 more 2 go!!	]
[	Current Music	\|	Lifesong: By Casting Crowns	]

There is only 10 more days till the new Casting Crowns cd comes out yall!! Im so excited. I already pre- orderd my copy from lifeway. I did it today so I'll be sure to get a copy. I down-loaded all the samples of the whole cd to my computer. There so awesome. I cant wait Im going to go right after school on the 30th and race 2 lifeway 2 get it. Ahh this is so exciting (Ive never been so excited about a cd before.) They havent had a new cd in 2 years. And this one is going 2 be great!!

Want 2 hear the samples go to : http://www.familychristian.com/shop/product.asp?ProdID=12488&AID=10294957&PID=1518946

Also.. They will be in concert on 11/18/2005 @ 7:00 PM, Olive Baptist Church Pensacola FL.
Im So going!!!

~*Jennifer*~

P.S: I do have a more serious entry from earlier 2 day, So please read that one and comment on it 2.

[Aug. 20th, 2005|11:49 am]

[	Current Mood	\|	drained	]
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Ive been thinking 2 day about some stuff.
This is my Senior year in high school. And everyone is talking about how they've grown up together and stuff. And @ hillcrest im not in ne of those convo's cause ive only been there thru high school. And That makes me want 2 go back to East brent and see all the people I grew up with from pre-school to 7th grade: Cassie, Lauren, Miranda, Christy, Rachel, Krista, John, Jeremy, Allan... I could go on and on. I had Soo many fun times growing up with those guys. The Beach retreat in Panama City were we woke up @ 6am 2 go surfing and skim boarding, D-Now where we would go and Roll Peoples houses at 1 am! Fun Fun!!

Then it would be Awesome 2 go back 2 NC and see all my friends from 7th, 8th and 9th grade : Amanda, Mellisa, Wayne, Jeremy, Leah, Shelly, Heaven, Josh.. (that really her name lol) and so many more people who I would Love 2 see again.. There was this one time n 8th grade where we went on a middle school retreat 2 the mountains and about 20 of us went and we all stayed n this 3 bedroom cabin. (adults n the rooms and girls upstairs and guys down stairs. And one day me and josh and 2 other kids decided 2 leave and go up the mountain it was soo cool. but then are youth pastor went looking for us and made us come down.. lol..

Ya so I really want 2 go catch up with All them but 4 the NC trip I dont have the Money or the time lol. So that Sucks!!! Well this year im just going 2 feel real out of place with everyone hanging out with old friends and stuff. But I'll get used to it (I actually already have). I dont hang out with ne of my hillcrest friends ne more. So ya...

The Freedom Experience was great I got 2 see some old friends. And Helped be on the production team. And Hang out with Brock. It was so much fun and like 170 people saved!!

Well I g2g. Work on my Chick fil a work (4 more books, 20 more videos and and 4 interviews + more essays) That MUST be done in a couple months for a raise.. TTYL Bye.

~* Jennifer *~

WOW!!!

[Aug. 19th, 2005|11:39 pm]

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Tonight was the Last nite of Freddom Experience. It was SOOOOOOOOOO cool! I got htere and hung out backstage with thecrew then went and did the lights. Then when it was over I got ALL the autographs. Then I helped them Breakdown everything. It was great I got home a lil while ago. Im tired im going 2 bed. and sleeping in tomorrow!! Tomorrow is my first saturday off n a while yay. I have no plans so I guess I'll stay at home :( well fixing 2 fall asleep. TTYL bye.

~Jenn

HECK YES!!

[Aug. 18th, 2005|09:58 pm]

[	Current Mood	\|	cheerful	]
[	Current Music	\|	Monday Morning is n my head again!	]

WOW SOOOOO COOL!! Another nite of Freedom Experience!! Im guessing about 50 people saved 2 nite idk. There was 143 last nite, the crowds were smaller but thats cause the youth groups didnt all come 2 nite.

It was great (besides the mosh pit during the band that I was trying to break up but all the guys pushed me to!! Then finally the adults came after like 2 min and helped me!! but other than that it was cool.

I got asked alot how old am I? and i was like Im a senior in High school and Tim (the skate boarder guy) was like "WOW your only in high school. You look older and Your smile and attitude is very mature" I was like thanks I guess lol. Well just got home.

I Cant wait till Tomorrow THE LAST AND BIGGEST NITE OF THE FREEDOM EXPERIENCE!!!!!!!!!

~Jennifer

[Aug. 17th, 2005|10:54 pm]

[	Current Mood	\|	excited	]
[	Current Music	\|	Monday Morning	]

THE FREEDOM EXPERIENCE !! We had about 100 public professions of faith there 2 nite!!
It was SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO COOL!!
Before the show show I had 2 drive the Cordinator of the whole event, Crissy 2 hillcrest and show her how 2 make copies of stuff, She cool she lives in Birmingham. Then Me and Nick got 2 go the the Prayer Meeting @ 6:30 and hang out with Brock and the Band. Then I was doing Lighting the whole time. It was cool. When it was over I went back stage and helped Mrs. Casey set up the dinner 4 the guys. And I got 2 hang out with um some more. It was awesome!! CANT WAIT FOR TOMORROW AND FRIDAY B THERE OR B SQUARE!!!!!!!! Tim (the skate board guy) is a cool guy (he was so happy just cause we had sweet tea (they dont have that in organ where he's from) The BMX guys are cool. The Band is really nice. and Brock is a great guy we got to talk b4 the show. LATER DUDES!

~Jennifer

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Toke this 4rm a friend

[Aug. 12th, 2005|11:49 pm]

[	Current Mood	\|	tired	]
[	Current Music	\|	Leann Rimes	]

I dont really have ne thing 2 say so read and answer this:

HONEST OPINION fill this out and put it in my comments THANX!
Am I cute?-
Am I sweet?-
Am I ugly?-
Am I crazy?-
Am I lovable?-
Am I funny?-
Am I Crazy?-
Am I annoying?-
Am I a good person?-

WOULD YOU
Hug me?-
Miss me if I was gone?-
Be a good friend? -
Cry if I die?-

HOW WELL DO YOU KNOW ME
When's my birthday?-
How old am I?-
What school do I go to?-
Do I have any siblings?-
Who is one of my best friends?-
Name 2 of my ex boyfriends?-
Favorite color?-
What is my favorite subject n school?-
Least favorite?-
Favorite sport?-
Favorite song?-
Favorite music group?-
What song would u dedicate to me?-
What do I want 2 be when I grow up?-
Where do I want to go to college?-
Where do I work?-
What my dream vehicle?-

IF YOU COULD
Give me another name what would it be?-
Hook me up with someone (real) who would it be?-
Do one thing with me it would be?-
Give me any advise what would it be?-

JUST A FEW QUESTIONS
Do you think I work 2 much?-
Do you care about me?-
What do u love about me?-
What is my best quality?-
If u could change one thing about me it would be?-
What is your honest opinion about me?-

ok thats it well answer and reply. I just got home from work so im going 2 go to bed, cause I got 2 work tomorrow (2-11). But I have fun working. TTYL bye
~Jennifer~

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[Aug. 10th, 2005|09:55 pm]

[	Current Mood	\|	thankful	]
[	Current Music	\|	Miracles: Aaron Keyes	]

Today was Soooo much fun!

Me and Ashley are starting 2 get along again, so thats good. It got bad there for a while but she told me what she thought and Im just trying 2 watch my attitude. Im NOT going 2 let it happen again. Im promising myself. I know no one hates me and yall are my friends, and I will never doubt it again Yall I promise. Im So sorry for the way ive been acting since the beging of the summer. I hurt alot of peoples fellings. And I know that Whenever I get annoying and yall dont want me 2 be around, yall well just b like "Jenn thats enough go!" lol. (but I doubt that will ever happen) Thanks so much yall! (Im going 2 kind of take a topic from one of Mariah M Journals and do it on mine {what I think about my friends one}) Im only going 2 write about a few cause I got 2 hours of home work 2 still do.

Ashley C- Well you'll be happy to know that for some reason. I got this really awkward feeling this morning that I hadent had in like 4 months and you will b very happy 2 know that it was.... Hunger 4 food. lol. Ya I dont know why but I felt Great but I was really hungry. (I ate 2 meals 2 day) thats a first n a while. Im So sorry for how I had been treating you the past 2 months. Thanks for never giving up that the Real, nice, crazy, fun Jeninifer would come back 4 GOOD! This year is going 2 be fun in Mr. Hannons classs building our Coral reef tank and then Mr. Skaggs He is a cool teacher. Thank yo sooo much I Love you Ashley! (Maybe I'll even come back to the lunch table if u'll have me back??)

Ryan: You have always been there when I needed some one to talk to. You are a great friend. Thanks.

Nick: Dude spending the Summer working with you was Sooo much fun. Thanks for being there 4 me.

Mariah M: We never really gotten real close untill this year. But its cool that we have cause We are both going thru kind of the same problems with what God wants to do in are lives. Those Kids are SOOOOO Awesome I love being around them. I have alot of fun just sitting there and being crazy with them. Shopping is really fun with you 2 lol.

Well There is more people I could write about but I'll save it for another journal.

Well I also wanted to talk about One of the Kids who I got 2 know over the summer. Her name is Averee. She is a really cool kid. But She has her good days and bad days. Her mom and neighbor Mrs. Jean wanted me 2 talk with her 2 maybe help her start acting like a Good kid. But I dont know how I did 2nite. I tried 2 find the right words to say but she just keept on mocking me and looking at the people walking by. But B4 that n the middle of the Kids Blitz thing she was like "Jenn im not ur friend anymore" but she was jk and I know she learned that from me but Ive been trying 2 stop all that so hopefully she wont do it 2 anyone else cause it really hurts peoples feelings. So yall PLEASE PRAY FOR HER.

Well If u read n my journal from the other day I had 3 options 4 this school year. 1. stay intern and b a regular senior. 2. Stay intern but help with middle school. 3. Quit interning and go 2 the Childrens Dept. Well Mrs. Welter came up to me 2 day and said he talked 2 bro. floyd and he wants me 2 b her assistent w/ the middle school kids. So I guess I'll have 2 tell Anne I cant do the kids thing. And I will only b in the Pier 4 1/2 of the service. So Ya (I wish I could of had more time 2 make up my mind but its already made up now. since bro. floyd said that)

Well Im going 2 go TTYL

B @ THE FREEDOM EXPERIENCE NXT WED THUR AND FRI!! B THERE OR B SQUARE!!

~Jennifer~

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[Aug. 9th, 2005|05:33 pm]

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-Please read my Post from Late last nite. I would really like yalls input on that one, I would like it alot!- Ne ways I got Hit on twice at work last nite it was crazy. I Didnt come home after school 2day, I went up 2 church and hung out with Nick. Then Mariah came up there (fun times just filling out a SALT App lol) Then from church I went over to The Hoovers and hung out over there till like 8:30. Its was soo fun. TTYL

THE FREEDOM EXPERIENCE

WED, THUR, and FRI August 17-19

ALSO ALL HILLCREST YOUTH there is a FX prayer meeting @ 5:15 tomorrow. BE THERE!!

Then at 6 we go up 2 the Big Party n the Worship center!

~Jenn